i am operating on this sleep:
2:40am-4:20am
4:30am-7:00am
2:00pm-4:00pm

and lots and lots and lots of caffeine.

right now i am supposed to be writing an 8-10 page essay on winston churchill. i only have 4 pages and i've been working on it for hours and it is due innnnnnnnn eight and a half hours. go me. it's because i don't know anything about winston churchill, really. i never pay attention in history. i'm quite good at churning off semi-decent essays in a small amount of time, but not when i have no idea what the fuck i'm talking about. so i've been sitting in not my room for quite awhile and am waiting for that person to come back and help meeeeeeeeeee.

so.
i seem to have no time to be creative. i'm not that good of a writer and i really only get the urge to write about once a month. no one is ever around to go take pictures me with me, and lord knows i'm not wandering around campus by myself with a camera. it kinda sucks though, having no free time. my free time is spent sleeping, eating, and on facebook pretty much. kinda sad but WHATEVA i am allowed to i had 3 essays due this week, a midterm, and i had to re-do a midterm.

right now there is a copious amount of drunk people on my floor. normally this does not bother me but my head is about to split open and it's 12:30am AND i have this essay.

i'm kinda rambling or procrastinating because i really don't want to write this essay. i know no one reads this and if they do it'll be like the first sentence that comes up in that notification area thinger.

sun sun sun sun sun sun sun i missed the sun today. i hate the rain and it made permanent looking spots on my boots. sigh.

speaking of the notification thinger, TOO MANY FUCKING ADDS. i don't give a shit about sales or whatever the hell you keep notifying me about. so stupid.

caffeine rage :]

ummmm. i am missing thingsss. i can't wait for this week to be overrr. i can't write this essay it is too harddddddddddddddd! but it's 40% of my grade. oh joy.

at least i am happy now and out of that momentary annoying sad stage. i am stayin POSITIVE except for maybe not today cause this essay is going to be the DEATH of me. and i need to do well cause i didn't do so great on the midterm and i am just awful with exams so yarrrr.

yarrrrrrr.

i hate this font. stupid courier new or whatever. i feel dumb. i have been rambling for quite some time now. my mouth tastes bad. i should fix this.

i am excited because i am moving into a house with friends next year probably and then i won't have to:
1. eat crappy caf food
2. listen to drunk people
3. have people around that i don't want around
4. have a larger bedroom/place for my shit
5. have a tv
6. be able to be with my friends :]
7. not co-ed washrooms
8. washrooms that are clean
9. showers that work well and are clean
10. be able to make my own food
11. easier access to a sink to wash dishes in

and so on. this entails me spending a summer in toronto. which i really don't mind. i hate hate hate hate hate my home town. there is nothing for me there really. a few friends in the general area, my parents and pets, but that's about it. i have a new life now and it's not there. i don't know if i'll ever go back, come to think of it. i suppose i might have to eventually out of necessity, but not if i can help it. i feel kindaaaa free-er, like i can go anywhere i want and it feels so good. i don't feel tied down or scared to leave places. well, i obviously do i have ties here now, but in a way i still feel like if i really wanted to i could just pack up and go somewhere by myself. before the thought of doing that felt devastating, but not anymore. it's really good. i want to travel and live places i've never lived before (aka everywhere except my hometown).

basically, life is good.

except for this essay.

/rambling.